Oldspice.
I am sorry it has taken me so long to reply to this, I have been thinking about it for a while but I still don't know what to say.
First of all I am sorry your mum was so ill. That must have been a lot for a small child to deal with. You must have an incredible amount of bravery and inner strength.
It is strange actually, that you mention you could not eat most meats, because I have problems with meat aswell. Mostly a safety thing though. I do eat it, but only if I have cooked it myself. Restaurants are a big problem for me, so I never can eat out, especially not hotdogs and burgers. With the beans, did they worry you or did you feel sorry for them (did they look like they were making a break for freedom?) I only ask this because I could never eat the last pea on my plate. For some reason a lone anything was just too precious to be eaten. LOL
I think it's possible that everyone has some little rituals they do, either on purpose or even in some cases without even knowing they do them. They are so much a part of the way they behave they're not even aware of them.
Lastly, I want to thankyou for answering my questions, and not telling me to go away and shoot myself in the foot. I really appreciate it.
Scarlet